As many of you know, my baby started kindergarten this past Monday. Kindergarten!! I just can’t believe it. Oh, and yes, school starts very early here in Arizona. I don’t know that I like it (it really sucks for Ches), but what can you do??
Anyway, we had Aiden all prepped for the first day. He had his new Spiderman backpack, his new Transformers lunch box, a new haircut, his school uniform, his name on both backpack and lunch box, I stayed up late the night before making cookies to add in to his lunch, and we had met his teacher and seen his classroom. Monday morning I went into his room to wake him up. Waking up Aiden is never all that easy. He reminds me of me: “Five more minutes, Mom!” However, on this day, the second I touched his arm and said, “Time to wake up, Aiden!” he jumped out of bed and exclaimed, “Today is my first day of school!!” Aiden was more than ready.
Since my sister was here visiting, she was able to stay home with the two younger boys so I could take Aiden all by myself. We walked onto school grounds, and Aiden led me to where his class line was. He remembered from the previous week! I took some pictures, and when it was time for his class to go in, I followed the kids, along with all the other parents. It was all so surreal. I didn’t cry, although I did see a lot of moms who were. I just felt so in shock.
We were able to go into the classroom and help the kids to their seats and take a couple more pictures. I was ready to leave, but none of the other parents did. So I felt guilty and stayed another couple of minutes. Aiden was totally fine without me, so I decided it was time to go. As I walked out, a father was saying to his weeping wife, “Do you really need to take 100 more pictures??” I had to leave quickly so they wouldn’t realize I was laughing at them.
The week is almost over, and it still seems very surreal. The days are a lot quieter without Aiden here. Today the three of us at home took really long naps in the afternoon. I get to spend a lot more time focused on Dallin, which Dallin seems to enjoy. We all enjoy getting into the van in the afternoon to go pick Aiden up from school. It’s all Dallin can talk about once we are in the van: “Get Aiden? Play on playground? Where Aiden go? Get Aiden from school?”
I miss Aiden during the day. I miss him a lot. I’m really sad to not be right there to experience everything with him (as I have for the past 4, almost 5 years!), but I know it’s all a part of letting go and growing up. However, as much as I miss him, I am loving this extra time and peace I suddenly have! I can’t wait for Dallin to start up preschool next year! 😉