In Sunday School this past week we discussed three parables of Jesus Christ, one of which was the parable of the talents (you can find it in Matthew 25:14-30). I understand that taken literally, the talents talked about in the parable was money. With every parable, we must look at the symbolism, and this is an easy parable to look at because the word “talent” pretty much means just that… our talents. In our New Testament study guide it says, “the talents represent gifts from God. Every person has been given at least one gift from God, but some gifts are easier to recognize than others.”
I think that we often think of talents as having to do with the fine arts because those are the most obvious talents. Julia is an amazing poet, piano player, and French horn player. April plays the viola like a madwoman, and is pretty handy with a camera. Heather has more writing ability in her little finger than most people will get in their lifetime, and she can play the piano, too! Karen writes, gardens, and has photography… all talents that I know we all wish we could do half as well as she. Rather than listing ALL of you with ALL your talents, I’m going to move on because while I am continually amazed by each and every one of you, I’m not writing this to praise each of you right now (sorry).
What I have been thinking a lot about lately is what other talents, or gifts, that I have. I especially feel the need to find out what my gifts are because my “more obvious” talents don’t seem to be doing much for me lately, nevermind the whole “glory to God” bit. You see, while I play the flute, I am really quite mediocre at it. I enjoy playing in groups, and I really enjoyed getting to play at church a couple of weeks ago (see! I did use my talent to glorify God!!), but I’m feeling like the servant in the parable to took his one lousy talent and buried it in the ground. Nothing came of it because he did nothing with it. My flute playing is like that. Nothing is coming of it because I just don’t play anymore.
Then there is the whole flag thing. I love doing choreography and teaching color guard (although not nearly as much as I loved performing), but I don’t have the skills that people are looking for in a guard coach anymore. I didn’t have the opportunity to participate in drum corps when I was younger, I don’t have the weaponry knowledge I need, and the only dance skills I have are what I’ve picked up along the way. So I’m missing a lot. I am currently in danger of losing my guard gig to someone else right now, and I think this is my last gig. I just don’t have what it takes. I didn’t bury this talent in the ground, however. I have invested this talent by working continually and trying to learn more. I could have done more, I’m sure, but we just don’t have the means for me to do it. So, like the servant who was given 2 talents to start with, I have taken that and I hope that I was able to make and additional 2 talents to return to my Master.
However, like I already mentioned, I may not have this job anymore. I’ll find out next week. I’m really depressed about this because this is something that I love to do, but I have felt for a while that the end was near. I need to find a way to help my family, and I have always felt that one should use their individual gifts or talents to support their family. I don’t know if that’s what everyone thinks, I’ve just always had it in my head that you should do what you are good at, and what you love. Now I am lost as to what I can do to help out. I don’t feel like I have anything left. I don’t have a teaching certificate anymore, so even if I had completely buried my musical talent, I can’t teach. I would love to be able to go back to school and get a new degree, but that costs money and I’m trying to help us get out of debt, not further in. I’m just trying to figure out what my gifts are and how I can increase their value.
It’s just something I’ve been tossing around in my mind for a while, and then we had this Sunday School lesson, so it’s really coming all together in my head.
No one has to comment on this. I just needed to ramble a bit and hope that it helps me clear things up a little.